Date : Thursday, November 20, 2008
Time : 3:21 PM
Title :

笑不出，哭不出的感觉。

Sometimes, it's better to walk alone.
I received her sms.
Each word, each phrase, each sentence to each paragraph.
I pondered for like so long.
I really neglected her.
I know ''sorry'' would no longer help.
It happened once, and now, it repeats.
What else can I say?
What else can I do?
Wait and see? Haiz. I guess I can't be bothered anymore.
I realised something.
I need silent at times too.
But me myself simply can't shut my own trap.
But now, I simply had to plug in my ear pieces,
blast my music and isolate myself from the outside
world for a few minutes. Just a few minutes.
By doing that, I don't have to bother what others
comment about me. For that few minutes, I'm
simply myself. I locked myself up in my world.
But, it feels so shiok. You know, how it feels when
you have to care about how others look at you.
You want to do something but you have to think
before you proceed. You need to worry this and that.
Then for that long long period of time, you are no longer
yourself. =X I feel that way quite often. Out there, I feel so tiny. So tiny that
I have to listen and regard the enormous.
I crapped so what? I can't be bothered too.